caged bird

save me from this world I know, where expectations are so high
living the city life where nothing seems good enough
and misery comes over me from things not going my way
and a 9-5er gives you the excuse to be lazy and let yourself go
save me from this world I know where it all seems like a dead end
and my mood becomes controlled by something as minimal as not closing a deal
when did it get to this where everything seems to be so stressful, is that just.. adulthood?
bring me to that world that exists in the universe where everyone is so humbled and happiness means breathing or getting the chance to eat an ice cream cone with your friend
or even just.. the ability to be positive
some days I may seem ungrateful – other days it’s like screw it, this is the society we live in, we are all hungry for more and if you aren’t upset at your situation then you are too comfortable
But what I’m struggling with is, which individual would be happier?
‘Cuz that’s all I care about and want
save me from this mental torture of ups and downs, and fly me to my serenity
I guess I just have to.. save myself by not letting my thoughts get the best of me



Funky & Fresh at work.

Or admiring from the outside,
Don’t be fooled cuz, the left is my bad side..
Red lipstick, I feel empowered
Negative energy, has been devoured
Crazy thoughts.. some of them potent,
Have no desire to.. continue on with this funk scent
Lots of confusion
Mind boggling, let’s get together and, we can just fuze this
We can just fuze this..
We can just fuze this..
Misinterpreting and all this unwanted shit
I don’t have time love
I have to write love
I gotta do what’s best for me so,
Whether I’m inspired..
Or admired..
I gotta get shit done,
So that I don’t get fired.

The Importance of Strong Ties.

Here I am blogging instead of working.. *sigh* I always do this.
My mind goes through a million thoughts per second.  For hours and days now I have stared at this screen with an unfocused mind.  My thoughts are elsewhere.  I’m actually thinking about the importance of having a strong support system in life.  I literally just had a thought to myself which was, ‘It’s so damn good to have people who support you in your decisions and through hardships. Cheerleaders. People to have your back when you need it the most, and even when you don’t.’
The more people I come across in my existence that aren’t like that towards me, the more I say, “Go fuck yourself. See ya.”  Sounds spoiled, but meh.  I could care less.  Nothing is worse than feeling like nobody backs you up (or the person you want to, isn’t).  Unless of course you are the one in the wrong!
But it’s just like when a parent needs to discipline their child, and the other parent is against it and saying something totally different to the kid.
What a piss off that must be!  Where is the team mentality there?
These are just random thoughts anyway.  Long story short, I like strong bonds.  If I don’t feel that in a friendship, relationship, business partnership – I’m very turned off, and will slowly distance myself.  Nothing to hide there.
I wonder how it would feel to live a life where you not only feel alone, but are alone.  Deep.  That must really hurt.
That’s not even a life worth living.