Each day of my life gets more intense with its’ learning lessons…
I have realized how difficult dealing with people really is; Even more difficult however, is dealing with myself and my inner thoughts.
Sometimes, I just don’t know what to do anymore, aside from write.
I learned lately that you just can’t be right all the time, it’s actually quite exhausting.
I’m surrendering to the high-road. Perhaps it’s the only way to free myself.
I talk a lot about this concept of “freeing myself” – I still have not figured this path out yet… It’s a daily struggle. I think it has something to do with forgiveness.
There are things that I don’t want to hear, but people tell me anyway.
There are feelings I don’t want to experience, but that I have..and currently deal with everyday.
And there are lessons that can only be taught deliberately…teach them.
My biggest lesson learned from this week was: do not put effort into those that do not put that same effort into you. I have opened my eyes a lot. I have been ignored a lot. Now it’s time for me to let go of all these negative feelings, and simply act accordingly. I’m tired of being the one that cares more, does more, says more. From now on I am going to just shut up, and keep my feelings to myself. It’s better this way anyway. Some may not like it, but then maybe that will make them open their eyes.
This week my focus will be on other things. Things that I usually put on the back burner.